It’s funny, how in one day you can yell at your mom and your dad and your maids to vent your frustration because no matter how hard you’ve selected your clothes, your luggage is still overweight; and then you have your big family over for a farewell dinner in a party that’s full of music and laughter; and then see some of them in tears — even the ones you thought wouldn’t miss you that much — while saying goodbye to you and wishing you great success in the future; and then you lie down on your bed staring at your own room and everything inside it,  realizing how everything’s gonna be different from tomorrow on, because very soon, 
you’re going to have to wake up alone
on a bed that’s not yours;
in a house that’s not a home;
in a big city you’ve never been to before.

And you have never desired anything as much as you don’t want it until now.

It’s very funny how all these emotions are simultaneously present even though one contradicts the other.

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